dam it is hard giving up

i wrote this back in 2006 still smoke free today......

have you ever tried to give up smoking?

i stopped as my new years resolution for 2 weeks. My asthma was doing well, no coughing then one night out with friends to many drinks and here we go again smoke in hand DAM IT!! i tried again a week ago but failed 4 days this time.. i gave the smelly habit up for 10 years with no urge to even try one..

but alas being the only worker that was a non smoker and what makes it even harder is that we all live in a isolated place no more than 50ms away from each other. socialize together, because there is no one else here, other than travelers and truckles passing thru.

i thought i was stronger than this i never caved in with cigarettes NEVER. Bordem nothing else to do but go for a drive, go to another roadhouse see the same things there.

i failed a friend i failed myself, man that's not a good feeling at all to lose the faith of a friend. :')

i have a goal set now!! i have someone to show i can do this, get rid of these stinking sticks.